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Alas, The Compass Rose

by Sleep Paralysis Social Club

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1.
Great Southern Vibe Kill 03:32
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A trace of disappointment A hint of melancholy here The Greatest Southern Vibe Kill brought down the brightest chandelier I am a black hole for enjoyment (and I just can't get enough) I am a glutton for despair (and I just can't get enough) Put razors in your apples (I always hurt the ones I love) The tangles in your vibrant hair (and you can try to cut it out) The wind cuts through the hanging laundry (How'd it get so stained?) reveals a spectre from the past The moon regards our feeble bodies (Disgusting and writhing and filthy) Like sugar sticky on her hands (You can try but can't quite get it off) and never keep it clean A trace of disappointment (I'm always gonna let you down) A hint of melancholy here The Greatest Southern Vibe Kill brought down the brightest chandelier (and I'm the dullest bulb) I am a black hole for enjoyment I am a glutton for despair and I just can't get enough.
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Ghost Party 04:24
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I've been punishing That little boy I was I'd never let him off the hook A candle flame I left too long to flicker as it pleased I'd smother, I'd snuff that fucker out Ghost Party Ghost Party at my house Ghost Party Ghost Party at mine I should learn to let it go, forgive the ways I let him down, a habit's hard to break, I hate myself for this, and I always will Ghost Party Ghost Party at my house (Bring your friends along) Ghost Party Ghost Party at mine (Don't tell them, don't tell them, don't tell them a thing) Ghost Party Ghost Party at my house (Bring your friends along) Ghost Party Ghost Party at mine (You can stay up all night) Throw open the closet doors The skeletal remains pour forth A sniveling and frightened me conceals himself in misery I tried to pray the rosary No angels ever answered me The Devil is in everything Letters, numbers, memories, I spilled my blood in secrecy When will I pay my sin off finally? Ghost Party Ghost Party at my house (Bring your friends along) Ghost Party Ghost Party at mine (Don't tell them, don't tell them why) Ghost Party Ghost Party at my house (Bring your friends along) Ghost Party Ghost Party at mine (You can stay up all night) You can stay up all night and cry
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East Coast Fireflies 04:40
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Early in the evening, just before the sun has set Locked inside your bathroom hoping everyone forgets Every little misstep, accident or foiled cue Counting One, Two, A million (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Hold it in now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Never let it out The Clock reads half-past early and the sunrise starts to crest Stood outside the cemetery, my thoughts have turned to death Even now, a worm will turn and cast a judging eye, Everyone can see (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Never let it out Every slur my father threw, I plunge into my side, Hung up like messiah figure, Martyred in the night Bless our souls we meek and many, fractured little spines Paperbacks in piles and lit up like east coast fireflies (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) I'm gonna cut it out Keep my hands from shaking loose and climbing up my tattered clothes, to where my cursed vocal cords Vibrate a tune to please The Lord Blot the tears and wipe my nose Ignore the swelling overtones as shadow figures writhe, betrothing, Consummating my revulsion (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Deep Breath Now (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) Hold it, hold it, hold it, let it out, (PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC) I'm gonna cut it out
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Vesuvius 04:26
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I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself, on accident or purpose, either way, there'll be a mess to clean I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself, on accident or purpose, either way, it'll be my own fault I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself while staring in the mirror I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself today I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself, and somebody will see it, I'm afraid I'm always afraid of Nothing can stop me, It's destined to happen There's naught you can do, it's like trying to fight gravity Like a dog in a bear trap removing the affected limb Or a fox in a hen house, I will eat until I'm filled Gorge myself stupid, My belly distended A daft ouroboros, I am my own sustenance, Gorge myself stupid, My belly distended A daft ouroboros, I am my own sustenance, Am I talking in circles? Am I saying what I've always said? Am I talking in circles? Am I making sense? If hell is other people, like my father said, There's choruses of demons harmonizing in my head I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself, on accident or purpose, either way, there'll be an audience I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself, on accident or purpose, either way, It'll be audible Nothing can stop me, It's destined to happen There's naught you can do, it's like trying to fight gravity No one's immune, we all succumb to entropy heat death and short breaths an absence of sympathy I believe life is just comical symmetry pillars of salt ruthless time is our enemy Speak into being a truth we can't skew or twist out with a sound that will rival Vesuvius

about

SPSC is back baybeeee. I used a lot of similar sounds and techniques I fell into while making Floral Roar drum tracks, but the lyrical approach and guitar style better suited the Sleep Paralysis Social Club "~^*Brand*^~"

I started going to therapy earlier this year, and learned to acknowledge that the things that have happened to me in my life were not my fault. To not carry the guilt and shame of abuse, and to let the ones that inflicted that abuse on me carry that weight. It's fucking hard.

It's hard every day to wake up and forgive my younger self for... being hurt. I hurt myself for too long, for BEING hurt. These songs are like, a meditation on self-loathing, self-punishment, self-forgiveness, and what it means to fail in the pursuit of that self-forgiveness. I don't always do the best job of caring for myself, past, present or future, but I know I need to try.

If anyone even reads this, I'll be shocked, and thankful.

SPSC forever and ever, Amen

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released December 3, 2021

All performance, programming, production, mixing, and mastering: Quinn Bishop Rentz.

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Sleep Paralysis Social Club Richmond, Virginia

SLEEP PARALYSIS SOCIAL CLUB is for you. SPSC is a way of life. SPSC is one person, split across many disciplines, reassembled poorly, the way God made them. SPSC tries their best. SPSC is a fake band with real music that you can buy. SPSC sounds like whatever Quinn wants them to sound like. What, are you SPSC's dad or something? No, that's Quinn, you goober. SPSC loves their dad Quinn very much. ... more

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